Single Digit

I'm so damn tired and so sore from all this 30-Day Shred - Jillian Michael's workout crap!  But hot damn, ya'll!!!  This Sh!t is working! 

I haven't lost a damn pound in days but all my clothes are loose and tonight I put on a pair of size 8 jeans.  Size 8.  That's a single digit. I haven't seen a single digit in over a year and a half that time didn't really count because I only got skinny then as a direct result of stress and medication and some half-assed exercise.  But this time?  DUuuuDE! It is all me. I have actual muscles.  I feel strong.  I feel capable and I'm scared to the core that I will give up too soon and not get any further and I'll be the dumbest blogging-gal ever and I'll have to go around saying that oh, I was skinny and in good shape but then, oh, the baby cut a few teeth and it was just so stressful I gained fifteen pounds!

I know this sounds so Woe is Me and Dear God, if I could only have THOSE problems, but, seriously, I'm afraid of losing so much weight that NONE of my clothes fit.  What if I have to buy an entirely new wardrobe?  That's expensive.  Although, I *doubt* seriously that this will happen. 

See? This is usually the time that I give up or stop or don't follow-through because I got sort of close to my goal.  That is why I'm doing this.

I am asking the Internet to hold me responsible.  Really, the only reason I worked out tonight was because I didn't want to confess here, that I didn't. 

Also, all this exercise demands some rest and I'm getting less than six hours a night right now which is just not enough and it's hurting me, physically and mentally. 

I gotta sleep now - ciao!

Comments

[christine]

I think you sold me on this 30 day thing!

[Swistle]

Holy cow, EVERYONE ON THE INTERNET is now doing this 30-day shred thing!

[Aardvark]

Single digits = foreign concept (for me) but Jillian did just kick my ass all over my living room. Here hoping for double digits that don't involve the word teen.

[Corey J Feldman]

Congrats on the workout results. I started running again a few months ago and it feels wonderful to be back in shape.

[Sarah Lena]

So proud of you!!

I haven't seen size eight jeans EVER.. well, okay, I haven't seen size eight jeans ON MY ASS ever. I've SEEN them, though. I don't doubt they exist.

So proud of you. Keep it up.

[Hilary]

First: Congratulations! That is some pretty amazing news. I am beginning to suspect you bought stock in the 30-Day Shred but in case you didn't, I might have to invest... How long have you been doing it? How long will it take me to fit into my old jeans?! I need to know!